I don't know why but I've been slightly depressed again the last day or so. I know when I'm starting to slide back into depression. I can't seem to find the energy or the motivation to get anything done. I got my board orders all filled for SF this morning, which leaves me with not much to do.
Whit is off on spring break from school this week, so she will be here until Wednesday and then she will be going to her dads for the rest of the week. I just know that by Wednesday I am going to be pulling my hair out and more than ready for a few days to relax. She is 11, almost twelve and in a very mouthy and defiant stage at the moment. Sometimes it's all I can do not to lose my temper with her, button pushing is one of her favorite pastimes as of late.
I think that not really having anyone to talk to here is really beginning to get to me. I know I should get out more, but don't really have anyone to visit or anyplace to go since I have moved here. I take walks a lot, if nothing else but for the exercise and freah air. I may go days at a time without speaking to anyone offline but my daughter. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so shy, and I was as good at making friends as some people I know are, life would be so much easier. Sometimes I want to belive god made me different than other people for a reason, but somtimes still, it hurts not to just be like everyone else.