He called here again a little bit ago. Apparently the phone company made a mistake and my number isn't unlisted like it's supposed to be.I've been sitting here trying to calm myself down enought to write this ever since.
Why does he think he needs to just call and make small talk with me after all hes done? What is it he wants from me? I don't have the strength to just do what I should do and tell him off. I really hate myself for that at times.
Now that I've had myself a good long cry mid-post, I still don't know what to do. Someday maybe I'll be alright…just keep praying and telling myself that. It's just really hard to believe sometimes.
Metal Angel 
It is as I keep on telling you….time. You need time to heal. He really is priceless isn’t he? And I don’t mean that in a good way Tina. Keep me informed how it goes for you on Saturday O.K? You know….whether he comes to Marion or not. What he ends up doing….whether you stand up to him and say what you need to say to end this once and for all. If you want to tell me you know i’ll be around T.