I’m feeling a bit at the end of my rope again, so forgive me if things seem a bit out there. There’s so much I’m thinking and feeling that I just can’t escape. Theres only distraction, but thats only temporary, as soon as it’s over those thoughts and feelings only return again.
I can tell I’ve been depressed the last day or so. I’ve been sleeping a lot more than usual. I woke up from a nap yesterday feeling this way and I still can’t get it to shake. I woke up hearing music in my head again today, after I nodded off for a few minutes waiting on the pizza. It wasn’t just the music this time, but some very bizarre thoughts, some of which I really can’t talk about here.
I’m just beginning to feel the weight of the inevitable, and as much as i pray I won’t have to face it alone, I know that I might. The tears just won’t stop. Every day I cry and pray a little more.
You have a right to feel depressed. Just try to not let it become a long-lasting thing. You’ve too much to offer others. GOD wants to use you to help others and minister to them….and how can you do this if you are depressed?
And T….you’re not alone. You have Hannie and Heath, and me, and others I don’t even know about. You have friends. And remember what Scripture says? Friends are to be more highly thought of than gold. So…..we’re all here for you O.K?